It was the true definition of insanity. I had been warned to start taking it easy, and schedule some time for self-care, but for some reason had not gotten around to doing it. My weight started steadily increasing, I stopped going to the gym altogether, and felt terrible about myself. It hadn’t been that long since I had been running 5km a day, and yet for some reason I no longer wanted to exercise at all. In my heart of hearts, I knew I was repeating the same old cycle that I had been on many times before. Two steps forward, ten back. It was a classic case of self sabotage.
I had hit a wall.
Allowing shame and condemnation to wrap its ugly claws around me, I sank further into despair. My body literally hurt like I had run full speed towards a wall, slammed up against it, and then slid to the floor. And, there I was crumbled in a heap -- feeling sorry for myself.
Over and over again I would ask myself, ‘Andrea, when will you stop repeating this cycle?'. My dreams were narrowly within my grasp, but my insecurity, and fear of the unknown kept me from believing they were possible. I knew in order for my dreams to fully take shape, I had to be healthy in every way. But I couldn’t seem to get a handle on my emotions long enough to make the change.
This is my story. Yours may sound similar, or take you down a different path completely. One that has led to frustration with yourself, hope deferred and forgotten dreams. Maybe you are questioning if you are even cut out to be doing what you are doing. Or, if you should give up completely. Like me, you may have finally decided it’s time to make a change in your life that doesn’t cause you to spin out of control every time something doesn't go your way.
There is hope, my friend. You can pick up your bruised and battered body, and receive the healing you need. Forget what has happened in the past. You don’t have to keep going back there, doing the same things over and over again.
And for goodness sake, you don’t have to carry the weight yourself. Or, fix every problem. So stop trying to do everything perfectly, so that you can prove to yourself that you are worthy enough.
It’s time for you to take care of yourself. To take the time you need to really gain a healthy perspective about your life and your future.
It’s time for you to truly understand your purpose.
And, yes you can totally go the road alone. Perhaps you need to. But, if you don’t, and you're ready to see yourself from God’s perspective, then I want to invite you to join me for a 5 Day Purpose Challenge.
For five days we will set aside everything that has held us back before, so that we can concentrate on what God says about our future.
Every day for five days (beginning May 29, 2017) I will send you a note of encouragement and a small challenge for that specific day directly to your email inbox. It will be up to you to follow through on the action item.
The best part is that you won’t be alone. You're invited to join a private Facebook group where you can participate as much or as little as you want. I will be popping in LIVE each day to personally encourage everyone in the group. And, I’d love to see you there!
If you have joined me for a challenge before, then I'd love to have you back again. Each season of life brings renewed vision and purpose. But, if this is your first time, I want to encourage to take that step. Letting go of what has held you back, so that you can look towards your future with hope and anticipation. Click the button below to get started.